Weight Of It All

I started trying to eat healthy again today.

I had a donut for breakfast.

Now, before you think that was a bad idea, I feel it’s actually the best way to start a “lifestyle change” or whatever you want to call it.

How, you ask?  Well, imagine if I’d gone a week without junk food and then had the donut and weighed myself the next morning and saw I’d lost a pound and a half - I’d convince myself that my “lifestyle change” could withstand donuts.  So then a week later, I’ve gained back the pound and a half and have consumed donuts I will never remember later.

In this case, I had the donut because it was Friday and they were here and I could.  The thing I’ve realized, of course, is I won’t remember the donut next week.  I won’t be able to use it to convince myself that donuts aren’t bad for me.

My goal with this blog is to keep myself on track.  I weighed myself this morning and I am at, so far as I can recall, my highest weight ever.  Ooops.

I invite you all to read and I may set up a forum for people to chat, depending on if I think folks will use it.  Feel free to weigh in (ha) in the comments.

I can tell you right now that this blog will not be full of sunshine and how fun it is to try and lose weight.  Losing weight - based on past experiences - is a lot of things but fun isn’t one of them.  It’s empowering, hard, calming, humbling, and lots of other good and bad things, but I never thought to myself, “This is fun!”

So bascially, don’t expect me to pretend that baked chicken with brown rice is as tempting at this point as chicken fried rice with my body weight in soy sauce.  Knowing me, eventually it will be, but it’s taken me 27 years to develop some pretty nasty eating habits and I don’t think that’s going to change overnight.

I am motivated, though, and I do want the blog to be fun, even if losing weight isn’t.  So stick around and watch me try and hopefully do well with this.

Pictures/measurements/numbers coming later today, probably.  We’ll see how brave I’m feeling.