Weight Of It All

The only time in my life I’ve ever stuck with trying to be healthy, I blogged it.  That blog has long since died due to some pretty intense personal issues coming up, and I always meant to restart it, but I never did.  Amazing how your life keeps happening even when you’re too busy to do what you’re actually supposed to be doing, isn’t it?

Let me be clear, from the start, that I am more than my weight.  I am generally a nice person, creative, compassionate (sometimes to a fault), smart, and lots of other good things.  I am not, however, taking care of myself in any meaningful way.  In the last 6 months, though, I have been diagnosed with obstructive sleep apnea and getting that treated has done wonders for my ability to think straight and follow-through on things.  It’s amazing what years of chronic sleep deprivation does to a person!

So here’s my chance.  I’m 28.25, and I weigh somewhere in the neighborhood of 285 lbs.  I could be upset about that - and I’m certainly not thrilled – but the fact of the matter is that I can’t do a darn thing about what I weigh today.  I can make choices today that will impact what I weigh tomorrow, but today is a sum of previous choices.

The goal, then, is to make the same comment a year from now but have it be a good thing.  I don’t want to be thin – I don’t have the bone structure for it. I have huge hips and the time before I lost about 30 lbs, my bust seemed to actually grow. I’m never going to be 120 lbs, and I’m totally okay with that.  What I want is to be strong and able to make choices without worrying if my body can handle it.

In the past I’ve done Weight Watchers and while I don’t hate it, I need more information than it provides.  I’m going to be using http://www.SparkPeople.com and this site to keep me focused and remind myself that one day does not a trend make – but that’s no reason to throw a day away.  I’m recovering from Achilles tendonitis at the moment, which limits my ability to work out, but I can do some stuff (upper body) and soon I’ll be able to use an exercise bike.  In the meantime, I need to get the food thing under control.

So we’ll see how this goes.  I think I’ll weigh myself tomorrow morning and post it and maybe do some measurements. 

Lastly, to remind myself, I wrote on my wrist.  Now I just have to look down to remember.